My 2013 for the most part was horrible and it wasn't till my holiday in Florida Orlando that I began to relax all that tension just flooded away into the Florida blue skies. Even thing looks better in sunshine ; like sunshine on a rainy day . I bet you feel like singing now don't you?
So my life had gone from zero to hero again I was my families hero again .
I am sorry I robbed you of joy and happiness for so long, it was a situation I couldn't cope with, it was if you didn't know who you were living with. I wasn't a wife and I didn't feel life a mother I felt like a prisoner in my soul. I felt as if I had failed you and had built up walls between us I felt sad.
I knew that you were there but I had a fog over my eyes that didn't lift till we were on holiday. And then my walls of resentment and hurt began to crumble ; moments of importance had been lost in the fog of my worry and woe before.
And now I saw our moments as moments that mattered ,our holiday mattered and I did my utmost to make it work and it did. I smiled, I laughed I even let my picture be taken, I fed a stingray I didn't panic when I lost something . We were family; we were the ones we mattered, it was our moments mattered and I look back at bad times only a little just a little knowing I can move further forward.
I look forward to our holiday this year and making more moments that matter. And you have me a wife a mother and moments that mattered from last year and yet to come.
Thank you to Lloyds Bank for helping me relive my moments that mattered. I am being sent some vouchers in conjunction with this post.