I was thinking something of which I do rather a lot .
How boring the world would be if we were all the same.
Monday was when I realised I wasn't quite over my depression, and that's really OK I'm not sure I'll ever really be over if I'm honest . Depression isn't really something you can wall paper over , we all react and recover in our own way.
Depression is simply put like an electrical circuit you don't know if and when you might short out.
What's the fix I hear you cry ?
Mmmm the fix could be a bar of chocolate , a friendly word a phrase of a song In fact anything !
" brown paper packages tied up with string "
Who knows ?!
It could be days before I short out again , months or indeed a year or years , after a momentous melt down last year I'm wary but I don't let it rule my life. I might shut down emotionally but it's my way of recovering so I don't go back to last year, every step I take away from last year is one more plus.
It's the old old adage of a swan calm on the surface but paddling like fury underneath , just because on whatever day I looked Ok, I wasn't really.
So I'm off to find my fix to my short circuit unless someone has eaten my fix ...
Till then I leave you with happy toast .