Finding My Way From No Mans Land

I wrote this on the inset of my anxiety in dealing with my Mother s mental health issues ( Bipolar)and it’s hard. I’m on the learning curve of being the one fighting for mental health care and it’s hard not only in me but for those around me.Time is essential for me to process all that going on and it’s been hard to deal with given my own mental health issues of the past.Words are my friends and my ally and so is social media I’m not splashing it about but doing it in a manner that’s comfortable to me.Let me make it clear it’s not an issue that’s going to go away but with help advice and getting to grips with my own emotions I’ll muddle through and sometimes I’ll stride through. I can’t emphasise the need to talk and scream about your situation to get what’s right for you and those you are in need.Carers need caring about as well in what ever capacity you’re doing it.

“I’ve had a stressful morning which in itself is an under statement , I have been very very upset to the point where I could quite frankly just go walk about but I didn’t. See what you don’t see is that words can have an affect on people and though I’m strong I do and will get emotional. This morning I was all for saying stuff Mothers Day I was I really was , I try and try my hardest and I don’t like to feel that I’m not enough when I am.

What do you do if you’re in the no mans land or being the child of parents who don’t parent through either having their own issues or want you to jump through self justifying hoops.

What do you do ?

I feel like an emotional wreck.

It’s not about the hugs , it’s not about the daffodils , it’s not about the cards it’s not about the cake.

It’s about the humanity.

People simply need to be humane.

I don’t know what the answer is.

I’m doing the best I can.

I’m not 5 any more and being grown up is hard.

Humanity is what should be in no mans land.”

It was when I wrote this when I knew I needed to seek support for myself , I do like to be helpful and to empower myself and others.

Don’t let your mental health issues or those you care about define you and others , we are all people are the end of the day.