Thursday 12 July 2018

Learning Just To Be You

It takes an awful long time to be you and I think now is the time to savour every little moment and every little cup of tea and though I may still worry on occasion it is really not trying to sweat the small stuff. To be invigorated in the day then stuff has to go right and I think fingers crossed it is ,there are situations and people I can not change and in the case of people you really can't change them a leopard doesn't change it spots ( except maybe on a rare rare occasion )


I am not a bad writer and I feel pained sometimes when I write though I am intelligent my spelling is a smidgen Machiavellian at times ( so said my school reports but not as eloquently as I have scripted these words just ).

All my senses scream "you shouldn't do this you shouldn't blog , you blog no sense and are as random as a T-REX at a disco doing YMCA."

Remember 

You can. You Will.You Are

Affirmation of the self is a real turning point in life.


If you don't talk then life can get so much harder and talking is the key but talking is hard for many an anxious person like myself.But talk I do and though at times it is ten to the dozen I slowly can gain my thought my it does take a lot of mental energy.


And just something sparked my interest and I mean my real interest in reading again and that was a book by Andy Weir called Artemis and oh my I am so excited and I haven't even purchased a copy yet.So you see Dear reader if I may indeed be so presumptuous that you are indeed still reading at this juncture!

So My mum actually got to the seaside this week with the salvation Army I believe and she happened to sit next to my very first Infant school teacher so I think from the age of 4 you best live a pours life.Now 2 weeks ago we had to go and sort out 2 rooms of my mums ground floor flat and it was in a state but sometimes you get overwhelmed  by stuff and can't see the wood for the tees and I think  in helping her it will be the catalyst to help herself .She was committed back in March/April and it has been a hard time full of turmoil she has only recently been released ( I am not sure what else to call it released sounds so draconian ) She hopefully will be getting some care support but still I have to help her as this is what you do for your parent.Also my husband had a funny turn in May when she was suddenly diagnosed with Diabetes type 1 and it was like hell had broke lose.But we are getting back on our feet and though I have been off with anxiety I can see a glimmer of hope to be cheerful and that is what I am holding onto.And plus the teen is back from university so that helps to coordinate me in some ways.

Linking up with Reasons to be cheerful 

4 comments:

  1. Looking for the glimmer of hope is important when you have lots going on and are not feeling completely in control of the situations. Well done Claire. Mich x #R2BC

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  2. Gosh you have gone through a lot. So glad you are finding all those positives

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  3. You have a lot on. Seek support from the mental health charities, the diabetes charities and the carer charities if you think they can help which they more than likely can. Well done you for being strong enough to see a glimmer - there is always is a light at the end of the tunnel if we just keep a firm eye out for it. As for the stuff on self-acceptance, Amen to that. I think I have finally got there with this but it's been a battle and a half for decades #R2BC

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  4. Wow that sounds like a difficult few months, I really hope your Mum is in a better place right now and you can find more reasons to be cheerful as the weeks go by xx

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