What gives you serenity after a bad day ?
What stops you blowing
everything out of all proportation ?
I like life on a even keel just tootling along , occasionally yes I will venture out to the big smoke and lose my self in an museum or an event , but my heart compass sets me back to the countryside. I have had what I can only describe as 2 irksome days. Which has made me realise that I need to be less cavlaier in my trust of people and perhaps I am too friendly I bounce in like a Labrador if I am honest. I am more people's cup of tea than I realise and quite frankly I could have spiralled down after the last 2 days but I didn't, I do however have to get stuff out of my system by talking it out.
Countryside is my salvation.
Countryside is the minds harmony.
Friendship has always been hard for me and being trusted I have come to realise is a coping mechanism for this, some friends are for the long haul and some are for pockets of time. Not everyone can be your friend or will be your friend and I don't expect that.
I have forever friends I really do and I know I can trust them with my heart but I will be more guarded that is for sure. It is a shame to lose a friend and you never know what battle someone is fighting , hell I know I am. I do have a lot going on in my life and I hold my hands up and have asked for the help I need.
I have come so far since last year and I am not going back no way.
My heart may still be on my sleeve but I will choose to out it there.
And this is not a needy post , neither am I playing the victim I am striving for me. I may stumble but believe me when I say I will not fall.