The struggle you don't see the struggle I've had on a daily basis and don't even get me started on those who say I'm victim playing . If I am very much mistaken this is my depression not yours and you're required to either help or not there's no in between so unhelpful commenting or griping is very not ever needed for us who suffer.
There is light.
But there is a sense of underwealming loss can you Imagine it having a love of books as I do, see that's something that you didn't know about me. I can only liken it to Michangelo putting down his paint brushes for several years and only drawing stick men , really doesn't make sense when you have an inate ability. To have an ability lost is soul destroying , you see people hear people discussing books and you can't join it ~ you're excluded.
The books just gather dust on the shelves , the words are still there but they're trapped in a prison of paper. Hope is there hold on to the words that talk , the just need for you to open the book, the book that has been gathering just upon the shelf , it should have been read it could of been read. Time is both a trap and a treasure and you've just got to discover that for yourself , time this moment is a treasure.
The dust is blown off and we are off on an adventure , will I handle it ?
We'll just have to see.